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Transitioning To Raw Vegan, A Journal

Food food food. So where do I begin? So far this whole transitioning to raw vegan thing has been really good. Sometimes tricky, annoying, and tasteless, but good.

overall health: I feel great. Well, to be completely honest I feel drained as can be right now, but thats because it's my womanly time and I didn't sleep well last night. But outside of those details, I've been feeling SO MUCH better. To be completely honest, I did a bit of an *yeah okay whatever* eye roll when the raw till' four trend hit--- and everyone said that it made them feel amazing with more energy. I just assumed that a lot of people went from eating garbage to salads-- and thats why they had the shift. Switching from garbage to salads would make anyone feel better. But even for me, someone who hasn't eaten almost any crap whatsoever in the past year, to switch to mostly raw foods, especially in the beginning parts of day, the difference is big. Really big.

I feel the difference (more tired + sluggish) when I eat fats. I've addressed the high fat thing a few food/diet posts back. I was eating A LOT of fat to try to put on weight. But I never gained weight from over-eating fat. Instead I ended up with all these vague complaints. By the advice of my acupuncturist (who I no longer see), I cut back on the fat intake and it made a HUGE difference in how I felt. And I didn't lose weight by cutting out the fat, instead I just improved my digestion (fats = harder to digest). Right now I've only eat bit of natural fat towards the end of the day and I can noticeably feel the difference between how I feel after a fat free meal vs how I feel after a bowl of guacamole. The sad reality is that avocados make me tired, haha. I mean, don't worry, the guacamole is still worth it, delicious, and healthy too, so I definitely still eat it (had it yesterday, nom), but I've cut back.

detox: So as mentioned, I detoxed pretty hard. I didn't really expect this. I thought, "but I've been eating so healthy and trying to slowly and naturally detox for over a year and a half, I shouldn't have too many problems with detox symptoms!* Wrong. C. diff is damaging to your gut and entire body. As are all the drugs I took in my teen years (acne drugs, antibiotics, antidepressants, anti anxiety pills)--- you know, all the garbage. Well that stuff doesn't magically and completely disappear from your body. I mean, a lot of it leaves your system for sure, but I really do believe that a lot of that just sort of circles through and hangs out in there unless you're actively cleaning it out. The detox hit me hard when I did that Mayan Massage. I felt the positive and negative affects for months. On one hand it did make my periods easier. On the other it stirred up a lot of colon + lady part toxins. So now that I've made the switch to completely cleansing foods, well, my body is cleaning out and I've been feeling it. The biggest symptom I noticed? Mucus. SO MUCH mucus. Gosh, I never ever get mucusy. I have once in the past ten years (since I cut out dairy) and that was with a random, post c. diff sinus infection. Other than that I am not a nose blower. With the switch, my body started purging-- everywhere and in every way. I'll spar you the details, but I mean everywhere. But the most noticeable way way via my nasal passages. I lost my voice for an entire week and a half. Maybe longer? I wasn't sick, just mucusy as all hell.

I also started breaking out A LOT. I don't think I mentioned it here though-- unless I did? Did I? Well just in case-- and this is super interesting, if you ever looked into 'body mapping' you can see where the toxic build up is according to your break out location. The same way chinese medicine connects different points or your body to different organs-- different acne break out points match those organs. The first week of detox my face exploded with pimples-- and the most noticeable break out location? All over my forehead--- tiny little pimples EVERYWHERE. And what body part does your forehead match to? Your digestive tract! Super interesting, right?! I've also had a bit of break outs twice on the back/side of my neck. This usually implies that you're fighting and infection or something with your hormones. This week I've also had breaks outs a bit on my jaw which is also connected to hormones-- and I'm period-ing. So theres that. I'm trying not to stress about it, but I mean, they're pimples, big whoop and I'm not 16 and really don't care that much anymore. And I'm reminding myself that my body is cleaning. Sometimes you gotta kick up a lot of garbage and junk before it gets cleaned out completely.

difficulties: I think the hardest thing for me has been my cravings for HOT food. I woke up today and didn't even want pizza. Like, I'm not dying for french fries or specific things-- but the thing I miss most is warming, hot foods. I don't feel warm and comforted by eating cold foods everyday, for every meal. I'm super thankful that its warm here in florida-- because I highly doubt I could do this if I was up north, but even in the warm Florida sun, I crave and miss hot food. I'm usually totally okay for breakfast + lunch. I feel good eating raw or almost completely raw. But half way through dinner I want to throw my bowl across the room and eat something warm. Anything warm. I don't need junk food or high oil foods. Really, I dont even care or crave junk foods anymore at all---  it could be the healthiest bowl of soup ever and I would be SO happy-- I just want it warm. Or not warm, but hot. Honestly, I want food to be on the verge of burning my mouth-- I've always been like that. The hotter the better.

Another difficulty is eating like this outside of the house. At home, it's not an issue. And even when I go out for errands or whatever, its not a huge issue, I'm just like a rabbit hat pulls out ten apples or oranges or whatever else while I'm out. It's just that I'm trying to get out of the house with friends as much as possible. Change my old routines, start new ones, do new things, whatever. But it gets difficult when I plan my day with friends-- because usually at some point food will be involved. We're a food culture, dining out is for nourishment and enjoyment-- and I can't show up at a restaurant being like, "hey can you get me a giant organic fruit platter?" You know? I know all the tricks-- you can eta before hand, or order a plan salad, no dressing, or just have water, but that's not fun That's not what I want to do. I dont like going out to eat and being the only one eating-- I dont want to do that to other people too! So for now I've been suggesting juice dates, beach dates, and picnic dates. I'll figure out the rest later.

mood: my mood is GREAT. If I'm being completely honest our home life has sort of been a shit show lately. I mean, no one is fighting and screaming over here, but life sort of did get turned upside down this month. And sure, part of my calmness is due to growth and the overwhelming patience I've developed in the last few years, but a big part is due to diet for sure. Diet plays a HUGE part in mood. I'm living proof of that. I overcame depression and anxiety through diet change. And I do feel like my overall day to day mood and outlook on things is highly influenced by the nutrient dense, brain feeding, happy and non toxic food I've been eating. All anxiety is gone. Rollercoaster emotions are gone. I just feel really emotionally good. I have real feelings and good and negative emotions--- I'm a dynamic human being just like everyone else, but I feel good. Emotionally, I'm in a good place.

contradicting feelings: I still go back and forth on the whole 'this is the perfect diet' theory. In a lot of ways the diet makes so much sense. In some ways it doesn't. I mean, my biggest thought it that at some point we did advance-- we learned languages, created tools, expanded and grew. Was it a change in diet that made this happen? Was it the use of fire? The time we left a mad life to create crops? What changed? I can't help but question the potential flaws in this diet. I do think this diet mostly makes sense because we are not changing perfect foods. The universe works the way it's supposed to and these foods were created with certain a certain biochemistry to fit our needs-- great! So it makes sense eating them in their perfect form. At least most of the time. But maybe we do need certain cooked foods-- maybe this helps nourish us and help us grow in other ways. I don't know. For now I want to keep moving forward with an open mind and I'll see what happens.

my gut: it's still a little weird from time to time. I still haven't figured out a good rhythm to it yet. It doesn't hurt unless I overdo it on cauliflower or broccoli. I'm still taking my probiotics daily. I feel like I wont need them later-- honestly, sometimes I still question if I need them now, with all the natural probiotics fruit and vegetable provide, but I'm taking them. Overall it seems like my gut is much better, but I do hope it'll get more stable as even more time passes.

lady things: As mentioned, it's my lady time. So my flow is the same. I was worried that I might start skipping my period again (like I did when my body gave out with the c. diff.) This didn't happen and I dont think it will happen anymore honestly. It seems healthy and good. I'm tired, sure, but thats sort of how it works. One HUGE change I noticed this month was that ANY pms symptoms I would have had before are/were completely non existent. Nothing, zero. I feel like I've been eating so clean that there hasn't been any junk in the way of my body converting it's estrogen/doing its hormonal cleaning thing. So yay to that. I'm still eating seaweed often for it's iodine. This makes a huge difference in my fibrocystic breast health. They hurt substantially less when I'm smart about my iodine intake. And I like to add spirulina powder to my smoothie bowls for the extra iron too :)

random fun stuff: the cravings I thought I would have, are non existent-- and I do actually find myself craving more fruit-- which is great. For instance, I actually drank one day last week and instead of waking up wanting french fries or other delicious hangover foods, I wanted pineapple. Weird, right? My body was like, "NO, I dont want your delicious garbage foods, give me pineapple!" I've never, ever had that happen.

eating: breakfast is almost always some sort of banana ice-cream, acai bowl, or smoothie bowl. Sometimes I'll mix it up and juice a bunch of greens and blend it with banana and berries. Lunch and dinner is more of a toss up. For lunch I've been doing more fruit. Sometimes it feels weird eating so many sweet things all day long, but I'm doing it. Half the time I go to my favorite lettuce wraps and still clinging on to that not raw miso dressing for all things. For dinner, it depends how I feel-- but I definetly move away from fruit and go into the greens and veg realm for dinner. Sometimes I end up just eating what Marlowe is eating still. I've just been using less to no oil and drastically cutting back on salt. the salt shift has been hard for both of us, but we're working on it. I often offer to add a bit of the unheated oil on top of her food after it's cooled, since she is still growing and a tiny thing and I have mixed thoughts and feelings on the low fat thing. Some nights I'll make some sort of pasta dish and I'll have zucchini noodles and she'll have rice or quinoa noodles. We mix it up a bit. Snacks are always fruit. I'd say I'm about 75% raw vegan /fruitarian right now.

finance: I'm going to be completely poor from this. haha. Well, it's pricey for sure. Fruit is not cheap. That being said, I have yet to do my proper inquires to farmers + CSA's around here and I know I can make this cheaper. I finally started asking about wholesale purchasing this week. I'm going to shop around for bulk prices and try to bring down my overall cost a bit. I'm mostly really happy that I'm finally eating bananas. Oh and I'm so freaking happy that our papaya trees are ripening just in time. Now I just need to find myself an organic pineapple farmer to supply me with my one true love: pineapples.

final thoughts: Overall I feel better. A lot better. *Human* again for the first time in almost two years. I feel stronger too. I know I'm still pretty thin, but I don't feel weak. I feel like I can start moving forward in gaining weight and muscle too. Right now, I dont see myself being a lifelong raw vegan. But I could potentially see myself being mostly raw for the rest of my life. I can't see into the future so I really don't know what will happen or how I will feel years from now-- or even months or weeks from now. But right now the improvements have been so good and and completely undeniable. So for now, I'm going to stick with it. Ideally I'd like to go 100% raw (oil and salt free) for a month and then assess it from there. I dont feel light-headed, sugar highs or lows, I feel steady and good. I know this is going to change my life. It's already started to. And I'm still as excited as when I started to move forward :)


Have more questions? Please ask! You guys know it, I'm an open book. Let's chat about food, life, poop, whatever.


Sometimes I think way too much about the state of the world. To the point that it upsets me. I go through thinking and overthinking on what can change, or if we'll ever actually change it or if we'll just keep destroying the earth. Billions of years of evolution and we've managed to create more damage in the last 50 years than all other years and space and time combined. Did you know the rate of cancer is 1 in 3 now? That number is crazy. 1 in 3. Take that in for a moment. Think about your family and family members-- 1 in 3. We're choosing to surround ourselves with an overabundance of toxins every single day. We're drinking them, eating them, breathing in, and intentionally putting them on our bodies absorbing them into our skin. I know I can't avoid everything all the time- the pollution in the air and in the ocean, but I can choose what comes in our home and goes in and on our bodies. I dont want to have to question what I'm giving myself or my family. I want us to be safe at home. To feel comfortable and safe. Like we're making a difference in our own lives and in our world.

We've been using Maty's for almost two years now, since we've discovered them. And each time we use the Maty's products, especially the natural vapor rub, we love them more. We really, really do. Because it helps, it's safe, and because it brings us comfort. So much comfort.

As mentioned, Marlowe hasn't really gotten sick this year. Preschool was rough-- the tight space and constant boogers going around. This year is better. But this year, even without being sick, she asks to use Maty's vapor rub because she loves the smell of it and the comforting feeling it brings her. There are nights when I open Marlowe's door and walk into her room to find her peacefully sleeping with the smell peppermint and eucalyptus filling her space. She's at rest and I'm at rest. I dont have to worry about dirty chemicals on her body and in her pores. I breathe. She breathes.

There's enough out there to worry about. If you let yourself you could get swept up with all of todays fears and worries. I don't want to worry. I just want to do everything I can do to keep her safe, happy, healthy and growing. And some actions towards that will be large. But some will be small.

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Going Raw: Almost Raw Vegan + Nut Free Tempeh Miso Lettuce Wraps

How are you, friends? Keeping' on and keeping' on? I hope so. I've found the raw thing slightly challenging lately, only because I'm trying to get out of the house a good bit-- and food is social! But I am without a doubt, making my way there and trying to keep up with it as much as I can! All while allowing myself space to do what feels good, right, or okay at the moment. At the very least, I can say, I am doing the 'raw til 4' thing now.

I guess one of my biggest struggles right now is learning to grow accustomed to food without salt. In the moments where I am completely raw for three days or so, it gets easier. But in the times where I eat salt, I want more salt. So while I transition over, I am using miso (and other not completely raw items) here and there. I already shared my favorite dressing recipe with you guys last week-- so here is one, very delicious, healthy, and mostly raw way to use the sauce! And best yet, it's SUPER easy to prepare AND pack for lunch for the folks working at the office or outside the home :)

You'll need:
-a few pieces of romaine lettuce.
-one small beet, peeled
-1/10 of a cabbage, sliced thin
-one smell carrot
-half package of tempeh
-a few pieces of thai basil (regular basil will suffice too!)
-fresh lime for garnish
-my favorite miso dressing (nom nom nom!)

How to:
-with cheese grater, grate/shred your beet, carrot, and tempeh.
-layer on your veggies, tempeh, and a few pieces of basil onto romaine leaf
-top with miso dressing + lime juice

So simple, so easy right?! I mean, it doesn't really get much more simple and whole than that. You know, because just munching on a whole vegetable I guess ;)

So, I don't know if it's the energy around here, the detox, or just the overall diet change, but I go from very hungry and to oh-so-very full from eating what seems like a small amount. This meal FILLS ME UP in surprising ways. I've found that every single time I've eaten this for lunch, I'm barely hungry by dinner! I still force myself to eat dinner--which is not really suggested (because that puts unneeded strain on your digestive track), but I still have that post c. diff fear that I'm going to lose too much weight too fast. I know I need to get over it, but for now, I'm always counting calories to make sure I get more than enough!

Also great? This is so incredibly easy to take on the go. And it hardly takes any time to prepare at all! Minutes, really. You could make enough dressing + prep enough veggies to eat this three days in a row with zero problems. There's really no excuse not to, it's just too simple and healthy not to :)

Just remember, with any food, but especially raw food, it's important to chew chew chew. Chewing is the first stage of digestion! Don't make your stomach do all the work and get tired out on ya, use your mouth and teeth! You have them for a reason!

Alright friends, I hope you had a wonderful weekend! Mine was pretty good--- the weather is finally cooling off and it makes me feel glorious <3<3 Happy monday, friends!

Antigua Love, Inside & Outside

It's crazy to think that in less than just one month we'll be back in Guatemala. Did I mention that yet? Here? We are. I planned the trip for a few reasons. None of which seem to matter too much anymore-- except for the biggest reason, I guess: we just love it. Guatemala and Mexico both have my heart forever. I understand theres much more exotic places or luxurious places, but my heart is pulled to these mayan regions. Not exactly sure why, but I accept it, fully.

Despite the constant rain and the cold we are not used to and not prepared for, we loved it. I'm lucky I brought a lot of layering clothes-- and wore all my layers everyday. Marlowe too. We're tropical girls for sure and this weather resembled the kind that gives you that permanent chill in your bones. Where the moment you lost your internal warmth, you were a goner for good. The cold would take over and stay in your body until the sun shined again. Lucky for us, the sun did eventually shine. It always does eventually, doesn't it?

And in the rain, shine, shivering cold, and even in the bus and car pollution that the center of town brought in-- there was something good about the air. About living outside. Something far more natural and primal. Something that felt right.

Every hallway in our casita was outside. Covered by a roof, but allowing for wind, sun, and rain. Leading to another room, a place to take cover, to find comfort, or prepare a meal.

and the details of a 300 year old house? magical. 

Marlowe and I took the upstairs bedroom. The window to the left had a volcano view. The window to the right led out onto the roof.

Miss Celia and the little ladies had a photoshoot. Marlowe is always give or take about photos. I never pressure her. If she's in the mood, wonderful. If not, I back away. It's rare for people to see my childhood photos-- mostly because they're so lacking. I was so painfully shy (sometimes I still am) that I couldn't even imagine the idea of standing still and having a camera pointed at me. And yes, this is 'inside' our house.

Through the bedroom window. 

The only suitcase we packed. Which I would recommend with all the cobblestone streets? A rolling luggage is not your friend.

And the best, sleepy 7 am travel buddy there. 

Looking forward to visiting the spots we loved most, finding new places, and eating substantially more coffee on our return. You can see the rest of our Guatemala pictures: HERE

My Favorite Miso Sauce / Dressing Recipe (Vegan, Gluten Free, Nut Free)

Hi friends! How are you? I'm holding it together, for sure. Staying grateful for this breeze the hurricane brought it. When you have to pack everything up to protect it from the storm-- well, theres something good feeling in that. For me anyway. Gives you a chance to clean everything up, see what you really want to keep, change, or remove, and make it a bit better. I'll be heading outside to help fix up the back--- just as soon as I share this recipe with you!

So as mentioned, I'm going raw vegan-- and not just raw vegan, but also nut, salt, and oil free. Transitioning to oil and salt free is hard! Especially for someone who loves indian food so much (so much salt. so much oil). But, you know, I'm tired of feeling "fine" I want to feel "GREAT" and this is part of my process. If I don't at least give this a shot, well then, I don't know. So in a few weeks I may not be eating dressings like this-- but for now, I will be having this from time to time while I transition! It's SO good. Maybe my favorite dressing. There's a similar version in my cookbook, but it's packed with peanut and my body doesn't allow peanuts anymore. I was so bummed when I discovered this-- because that was one of my favorite dressings. So of course, I adjusted, put my head to it and knew I could create something similar and equally as satisfying, and maybe even slightly better for you-- since you know, this has miso, which has natural probiotics for your gut! I'll be sharing a few recipes I use this sauce for too! Right now I have one photographed and edited (yay!). My other favorite recipe is not raw vegan AT ALL-- quite the opposite actually, but it's a recipe I ate multiple times a week in the past few months. Something you guys will find warming and nourishing in the next winter months, I'm sure :)

You'll need:
2 tsp ginger, grated
1/4 tsp garlic, grated
1 tablespoon + 2tsp organic miso paste
1 tablespoon tahini
1 tsp toasted sesame oil
1/2 tablespoon fresh squeeze lime juice
1 tsp raw apple cider vinegar
1/8 - 1/4 cup water, as needed

How to:
Combine all ingredients except water! I usually like to start with the paste-y stuff first (ginger, garlic, miso, and tahini) before adding the other ingredients. I feel it's easiest and less messy :) The slowly add the more wet ingredients. Lastly, add a tiny bit of water at a time until you reach your desired consistency. I like a good medium texture-- something that doesn't dump off the spoon, but doesn't completely stick either :) 
Now of course, remember we all have different palette-- for e this is just the right combo of salty, sweet, and acid. But adjust the ingredients as needed! Need more salt? Add more miso. Need more acid? Apple cider vinegar or lime. More spice? Ginger. Play with it and find the perfect ratio for you!  Top this on your favorite salad, noodles, as dip for spring rolls, all the things! More recipes and meals I like to eat this with coming soon!

Alright friends, I'm going to eat a papaya and head outside to clean up the back. Or just sit and enjoy the breeze. We'll see ;) Happy tuesday.

Update: Hurricanes, Raw Food, Life

I've been lying in bed for the past hour or so, staring at nothing, letting the time pass by as I try to process my thoughts. I have too many thoughts. You know those Myer Briggs tests? I've mentioned them before, but mine (INTP) is spot on-- and has been for years, even as I grow and change. I guess I overlooked or just forgot bout the 'half thought' part. It does describe me as completely honest, which I can mostly say I am. And at the very least, I'm very direct and almost exclusively honest, with a few protective fibs here and there. But it mentions that you have to 'take things said' by my trait 'with a grain of salt'. Not because I'm a liar--- but because I have too many *half thoughts*. So they're real, honest thoughts and feelings, but maybe not fully established yet. I should work on that. I guess right now I'm trying to process life before I talk too much about it, skipping the 'grain of salt half thoughts'.

I've been feeling this world of limbo for a few months now. And after this week, well, a lot of things are sort of still in limbo, but it seems like, for the most part, a path is being laid. That I can finally step out of this weird in-between place in my mind. Patience hasn't really been my strongest feature in life, but I've been working on finding peace in the limbo, knowing that eventually, it would be figured out, without me stressing about it. And it seems that thats finally happening.

I watched this TEDtalk a few months ago about making decisions. And the woman was saying there are two types of people. The people who created they're life path because they chose everything (or almost everything) that led them to that point. And the people whose life paths were created because they accidentally stepped or fell into each direction-- no choices made. That's me. The one who's life was made by falling (or swimming, if we want to sound more graceful about it) into each stage. I'm not the most decisive person, I rarely know what I want. I'm only good for stating what I don't want. Well, usually. Sometimes I don't even state what I don't want, I just rather avoid confrontation and live with discomfort. Career, parenthood, any jobs I've ever had, big things and moments in my life, I mostly fell (or swam) into. I didn't wake up one day and decide, "I'm ready for kids, I should become a mother" or "I'm going to become a blogger" it all just sort of happened. I mean, even with Alex, I sort of just fell into that too. And I chose to stay through all the good shit and bad shit (discomfort) to be where I am now. And to be quite honest, I'm okay with being a person who just goes with the ebbs and flows of life, without making a lot of big decisions. I guess the hard part is when it is time to make decisions, life changing decisions-- I mean, then what? Not that hard choices are really easy for anyone, but certainly not for someone who's never really made them. I mean, I guess there were small decisions I've made everyday in every which direction, yes, but I did mostly fall into everything.

There's been a few hurricanes this week.

I mean, the kitchen looks like a hurricane went through it right now, but I'm choosing to let myself be lethargic. I could push through and get up and do it (and I probably will in just a bit). For now, I'm okay randomly staring off and just feeling.

The actual hurricane, well, we certainly got a bit lucky with that one. It was headed directly towards us, but as the day went on it slowly changed its course and our city on got passed. We had some winds, some rain, but nothing worse than a bad summer storm here. I took a few photos from the day, but really, it was like a lazy rainy day sleepover party. And of course, I mean that in a good way.

Health wise, well, I haven't had a voice in almost a week. I've been feeling mostly okay, but the joke of the week is that I've been spring break partying too hard. Of course I haven't though. Well, I actually did go out last night, but otherwise it's been quiet over here. But I don't really feel that sick. I just feel like I've been detoxing. Which I have been. But I can't 100% tell if all this random mucus I have is due to a detox process or a virus. It feels and I hope it's the cleaning out system in my body. Apparently going completely raw was just too hard on my body. I've done two week raw detoxes (a cleanse guide available HERE), but I've never had very difficult detox symptoms. It makes sense that I would now though, after the c. diff and not eating ANY raw foods for an entire year and a half?! My body is like "whoa whoa whoa drea, take it easy" so this weekend I have been eating a bit more cooked food (fried tostones too mmmmm) and I plan to patiently (ugh) transition more slowly into raw veganism. Again, patience is not my strong suite. It's just that I know I want to really try this diet--- and having to transition into it, is not something I want to do. I wanted it to be immediate. But you know, thats life. I'll write more of a post about it, maybe at the end of the week? Foods I've been eating, the symptoms I've been experiencing, etc. But for now, I'll say, I really truly believe that this is gong to make a HUGE difference on my life, once it fully happens.

Emotionally I'm sort of all over the place. I mean, I'm still straight faced and not like outwardly a mess or anything, but my head is just sort of floating in space. Not overly sad, not overly happy. Life just feels extra strange right now. The air has felt different this week. It blew in with the hurricane. Or right before actually. An energy shift. Detoxing can make people a bit more irritable and moody-- but I haven't felt that at all. I've actually felt more calm than usual, given my current circumstances. Maybe because I haven't had to cut-out sugars, wheat, or milk? I believe those are the main things that cause irritability when you remove them. I cut out wheat and dairy a long time ago, obviously. And it's SO rare for me to have processed sugar-- if anything I actually added a whole lot more natural sugar in my life. Anyway, I'm going off on a tangent--- I guess the reality is I'm trying to figure out what my emotions actually are this week.

Anyway, I'm fading. I hope that even half of this makes sense. It's hard to tell if I'm just typing out a jumbled mess or if I'm actually putting out ideas that people can understand and process the same way the ideas flow in my head. Okay, I should stop typing now. I hope everyone had a good weekend. I hope anyone who was in the hurricanes path made it out unharmed and happy. I'm going to sit my butt down tomorrow to get the recipes up for tomorrow night or the next night, at the latest. Thanks for being here, friends. And thanks for playing todays episode of the "what the hell is drea saying tonight?" game ;)